It just gets better……
Well its 1.46am on a Sunday morning and I am wide awake!! It seems the next door neighbours (on our left) are having a sing along rap off party of some sort they got the mike and everything, and thats all good except they’re white as!!!like glow in the dark material with curly hairl!! Its quite funny!! That said its not why I woke up its the mungrels down the road about 100 m that are absolutely wasted and are yelling and screaming running down the road that woke me up!! and …… hello!!! theres a helicopter flying round now too!!! Ok I know I live out west and yes we are slightly dodgy, but man this is just bullshit!!!
I haven’t had much sleep at all this week!! Started off on a Sunday night, wont go into detail but unepectedly was very sick on Monday. Then start of the week my jaw on the right side was starting to hurt like hell and it was starting to swell up, and I was thinking righto, my wisdom tooth’s coming out its getting infected or something so I booked in Wed morning and got it riipped out!!! But nooooo… that obviously wasnt the problem, so besides the swelling of gettting the tooth out, cheek was swelling up even more and I could hardly eat or chew anything! So spent Thur night at the A&E as i was in major pain, after 2 hrs of waiting I got some painkillers. That night I got 4 hrs sleep, whcih was all good. Then Friday I woke up cold sweats, feeling very nauseous so off to the doc i went, who told me the painkillers from the night before are very strong and can do that to you, and she thinks it might be an abcess on my tooth (dunno which one) so shes put me on antibiotics, some pain killers and some other pills to stop you from feeling sich from taking so much shit! grrrrrrr…
So then i made my way to the dentist twice.where nothing showed up on the x-ray, she sent me home and said we’d wait to see how the antibiotics kick in as she wasnt prepared to open up one tooth at a time to see which one might me giving me shit! Anyway I’ve been doubling up the dose for the first day and i think something is finally starting to kick in, even though its now 2.08am i am kinda in a good mood as i can feel my face and have managed to eat bown cereal without tears!! nice!! high five!! 
As for my riding………. well I had a slight breakdown start of the month, training was bad, I just wasnt handling anything, could not recover, and the couple of races I did do (only talking half hour crits) i was not able to recover from for days after. and traingin was totally depressing the living crap out of me…. however this week i was starting to feel better (mentally) and was planning on having a big week of just miles and enjoying the riding and so far……… I have done 1 ride since last Friday!!! So ….. what can i say………. i guess the big picture is my season in Europe next year and that is was I am focusing on, but man its had to think that the elite nats are on in less then a month and at the moment I am struggling to handle more then 2 hrs of riding…. (those who know me will also know this is where I just want to type in a WHOLE lot of… well most people describe it as “colourful language” or “swearing”….. )
So the past 3 months I have managed to start training 3 times… with no more then 30 days of training put together, and have been on 4 rounds of antibiotics…. i have never in my life been on so much crap …. I HATE it… how hard is it to just ride a damn bike and fucking enjoy it aye!!!!!!!
So, tomorrow it Monday, baking day!!!! and i will once again start fresh …. things are looking good, i move into my flat tomorrow, i get a new bike next week (will tell you all bout it next time), the weathers looking good and finally things at home are starting to settle down!! yessssss!!!!
Hope you dont hink I’m a complete loopy but hey someones gotta be one!!! hahaha…
OK bye for now!
Marina
P.s its 2.30am and the white rappers are outside now yelling too!!! but at least they’ve stopped using the mike…..oh and the helicopter’s gone too!!!!
